I’ve mentioned before about how I don’t deal very well with uncertainty. I like to have a clear vision of the future and where I fit in it. I don’t care if the weather ahead is dark and stormy, so long as I know the forecast.
So I’m currently investing a great deal of mental effort into trying to be TOTALLY OKAY with that great big blank space which is lying just ahead of us. Nathan’s contract finishes in five weeks, leaving us free to leave Hanoi, and that’s the end of what we know. We don’t have jobs, we don’t know what city in Australia we’re going to move back to, and there’s no point us going home until we actually manage to get jobs. We don’t know when that will be, and until we do, we can’t even buy plane tickets.
Cue Operation: WE ARE TOTALLY OKAY WITH THIS. Keep saying it, and it will be so, right?
Yes, Nathan and I have had several minor freak-outs over this. But we pulled ourselves together enough to devise the world’s most appealing alternative to an uncertain future, whereby we post all our stuff home and head to a Thai island with a good internet connection, and wait until we get jobs.
It looks like we can get a quiet beach bungalow on Koh Samui for about $150 a week. Nathan is going to study, and I’m going to write, and we’re going to luxuriate in the kind of ceaseless stretch of time that won’t be bestowed on us again until our retirements. Or, we’re at least going to try.
There’s something about unemployment that renders you incapable of making the most of your time. And then you get a job, and then you never have enough time, and then you fantasise about not having a job. So we’re not positioning this as unemployment; this is an indefinite holiday. I know how good that sounds, because when I tell people, they look all wistful and jealous. Not the kind of look you get when you say you’re jobless and homeless.
We’re starting to believe our own marketing. I’m getting pretty excited about the idea of having no plans, no lists of things to do, no hurries. Just some job applications, some walks on the beach, and plenty of Thai food.
It’s going to be a bright, bright sun-shiny day.