Fermention of the brain by Beth

21 Nov

One of the perks of being married (or having a longterm partner) is getting to observe someone close up who was brought up differently, with different genetics and different early experiences. It’s fascinating. Jeff and I are very similar in many ways. Similar taste in music, TV, movies, people. Similar beliefs. No doubt we’ve also influenced a lot having known each other for 20 years. (Wow, I only just realised that!)

Anyway, the one thing that is VERY different about us is the speed with which we write an email. Doesn’t matter if it’s a very important, formal email or a quick “hey”, Jeff will sit on the task for what I consider to be an inordinate amount of time. I sometimes sit perched next to him after he’s run an email wording past me chanting “send, send, send” like a wifely banshee. I annoy even myself! But he is patient and doesn’t hesitate to leave the draft that bit longer and send it when he’s ready.

There are some things that I’ll do on the spur of the moment and many that I too leave to ferment in my mind before acting. Such as eating healthier. This task takes many months of saying goodbye to every conceivable dessert a few times before I act. But with other things, such as deciding I wanted to create a solar system out of melted breadtags and have a solo exhibition at a certain gallery in Sydney. I came up with the idea on the spot when Jeff asked me what project I wanted to do next and then proceeded to do it over the next 6 months. Very satisfying.

Something that I always leave to ferment so long that it’s almost no use thinking of it at all is any idea for a documentary or a radio documentary. I can take a photo as fast as anything, but because I have a residual fear of failure from my film school days about creating docos, I can’t bloody act on an idea. It’s frustrating. Can you please be my witnesses that I must ferment no longer on this and need to just START one?

K thx bye.

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6 Responses to “Fermention of the brain by Beth”

  1. Justyna November 21, 2011 at 9:40 pm #

    Yeah Beth, just bloody get your bum into gear and do one!!

    What are you waiting for anyway? It’s not like your skills as a doco maker are going to improve if you don’t actually do one. So your fear of failure is irrational. Even if the one you do do sucks arse, then big deal. Experience and learning from your mistakes and all that blah blah blah, means your next one will be a triumph. So there. Plus you’ll have a bagload of friends supporting you all the way, giving you feedback and constructive criticism. Free consulting services.

    So why are you still sitting on your bum about it??

    I strongly believe that over-fermentation is so crippling. Especially when the fermentation cripples things in your life that can be excellent, rewarding or just better. It’s such a time waster.

    Having said that I am a major fermentor. So I really should just eat my words.

    • Beth November 22, 2011 at 9:57 am #

      Go Justyna! The vigour with which you say all that confirms your own need to eat your words. You go too girlfriend!!!

  2. Tabitha November 22, 2011 at 2:27 am #

    I will let Ira Glass say what I want to say:

    “Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take a while. It’s normal to take a while. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”

    NEVER A TRUER WORD WAS SPOKEN.

    This quote is one reason why I really want to keep going with this blog.

    • Beth November 22, 2011 at 9:56 am #

      I love that quote! I’ve read it before. When I read that, I feel like he’s talking TO ME, because that’s what my problem is: incredibly awesome taste, giving up after being embarrassed by my own crapness. He is so on the $$

      • Karen November 22, 2011 at 1:34 pm #

        Holy heck, I have never read that quote before and it completely explains my revulsion at my own creative writing.

        I have some more advice: fermentation occurs faster when the surface area is greater, so crumble your fermentable task into smaller pieces. The cute little Lactobacilli of your creativity are overwhelmed! Help them!

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